pushed to the limit.

I consider myself a pretty optimistic person.  In fact, pretty optimistic might be an understatement.  Have you ever met someone who occasionally makes you want to throw up because of their sunshine and rainbows approach to life?… hehe, there is a teeny tiny possibility I could be one of those people… :).

There have been very few times in my life where things got so bad, so confusing, that I really struggled to find the light at the end of the tunnel…and I think it’s officially safe to say that this is one of those times. 

I’m pretty sure I’ve thought to myself: “well, at least it can’t get any worse than this” about 10 times in the last 6 months…and guess what? it definitely got worse. 

Now, brace yourself, because I am about to bring out my eternal optimism here.  I am slowly realizing that the light at the end of the tunnel is that I don’t have to see the light at the end of the tunnel.  Ok, I promise this makes sense. 

I’m going to break out the Holy Book to explain myself here:

Trust in the LORD with all your heart
       and lean not on your own understanding;  in all your ways         acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.                 Psalms 3:5-6

Can I just tell you what a relief it is to not have to lean on my own, narrow minded understanding of things? oh my goodness gracious.  Not only that, but God has promised us:

…I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future Jeremiah 29:11.

The truth in God’s promise does not depend on our ability to be optimistic or to understand how our current situation is working for our good.  His promises stand true and faithful on their own.

I do believe I am going to work on transitioning from a having a sunshine and rainbows outlook, to having more of a faith in God’s goodness kind of approach :)

hello world :)

so, this is my first blog post...hello world :).

I am pretty much your average girl... with an above average stubborn streak. God's been trying to teach me the same lesson my entire life: that I am a bride first to He. Due to the above mentioned stubborn streak, it has taken me awhile to grasp it... and I will probably still be trying when im 97 :) but im not giving up!

I decided to document my journey and what the things I learn because I have a feeling I might not be the only girl who struggles with the whole concept of finding my identity and worth in Jesus. I am hoping that my mistakes and struggles will help someone else- and that others may read this and be able to share their own wisdom with me.

In a world that works overtime to tell us who we are: worthless, objects, beautiful only when we show our bodies- we're going to have to work even harder to speak truth into our lives.

We are daughters of the King- crafted with care until we were perfect in God's eyes. We are priceless and we are His. It was easy enough to type it, the hard part is believing it!

It's going to take some team work, but with time- i think we can start to own our true identities :)

I will write again soon!